I met with my therapist today, who is one of my diet coaches. I didn’t do my blog entry the night before, as I usually do, and I was feeling out of sorts about it. Overwhelmed. Was I starting to fail? Would I be able to keep this up? What were my (few!) readers thinking when they didn’t see a new post first thing this morning?

She asked me what this blog means to me and what’s the importance of posting every single day. I told her about my dream of going all the way with the Beck Diet Solution—42 perfect days in a row; of joining the great blogging community; maybe even meeting Dr. Beck herself someday. And maybe, just maybe, helping someone else who’s struggling out there to go all the way, too.

My therapist reminded me that I’m doing this diet for myself, not for the sake of a blog. She wants me to go at my own pace, which means slowing down when I feel overwhelmed. Maybe take longer than a day on some of the “Days” in the Beck book.

She reminded me of a quote from an email that Dr. Beck sends to subscribers to her email newsletter. (Email dietprogram@beckinstitute.org if you want to subscribe. The newsletter has a lot of helpful info and success stories!)

…the most frequent mistake dieters make is focusing on changing what they eat before they have really mastered—and consistently use—the thinking and behavioral skills in the books … if you’re struggling, go back to the beginning of one of the books and master each step before you go to the next one, no matter how long it takes.

Right from the horse’s mouth! I need to keep my focus on mastering the skills at my own pace, for myself, not on being Ms. Perfect Blogger.

So, while I will continue to post every day, the posts will not always be, “Did today’s task, completed the checklist, yay me!”

I will write honestly about the struggles that come up. If I have to repeat a Day, I will. And I will walk at my own pace.

Sabotaging thought: “I don’t deserve to prepare yummy meals for myself. My enjoyment is not important. I should just eat what’s on my diet and deal with it.”

Helpful response: “WTF? I deserve the same things as every other human being!! And that includes being able to eat and enjoy food. I will be much more likely to stick to this diet for the rest of my life if I learn and prepare recipes that I love. It’s important. I’m important.”